Oh Look, That Damn Android Is Still Here
Jan. 10th, 2020 02:24 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Hey all, sure has been some time, hasn't it? I've been sparse within the otherkin community for sure some time now. My otherkinity just hasn't been something big enough to me to seek out regular places to discuss, except maybe discords I can check on breaks at work, but otherwise it's just a constant I've always lived with, no big deal.
So what has the android been up to? A lot, actually. I've moved between two different cities a couple times, now settled in the capital city of my province, and just completed a heavy AV tech busy season. Now it's quieted down again for the winter, so I'm around here and there. I also got to have my partner (long-distance) visit me this summer, and we're preparing for another visit where I will go down south of the border to see her in just over a week! But this isn't what y'all are here to hear about, now is it?
Like I said, not too much has been worth talking about in terms of my otherkinity. Still those same two kintypes I haven't been fond of, the android and Alolan Marowak. Though I've definitely been doing some active introspection around my work schedule, even when I stepped away from the otherkin community for a decent break. The Alolan Marowak kintype got the most scrutiny from me, I disassociated from the source for a long while, and took on a broader, non fiction-specific term for the identity while exploring other potential options, which was fire-oriented reptile. Kobolds, salamander elementals, drakes, all these things I tried to cycle around, none really fit. So, it is what it is I guess, I've dropped back into Alolan Marowak after a number of months of feeling repressed and awful.
One major change that has happened is allowing myself a sense of neutrality towards my otherkinity, trying to process that I don't want to waste energy hating this part of me or being grumpy and neglectful about it. I don't need to make myself like it or be excited about it, but a mind-state of "it is what it is" has soothed things a fair bit. Always still open to questions of course, but meh.
Meh is about the best I've achieved, and I'm fine with it.
Anyways, that's probably all I've really got to update here on. We'll see if I return to activity like I really should, or not.
So what has the android been up to? A lot, actually. I've moved between two different cities a couple times, now settled in the capital city of my province, and just completed a heavy AV tech busy season. Now it's quieted down again for the winter, so I'm around here and there. I also got to have my partner (long-distance) visit me this summer, and we're preparing for another visit where I will go down south of the border to see her in just over a week! But this isn't what y'all are here to hear about, now is it?
Like I said, not too much has been worth talking about in terms of my otherkinity. Still those same two kintypes I haven't been fond of, the android and Alolan Marowak. Though I've definitely been doing some active introspection around my work schedule, even when I stepped away from the otherkin community for a decent break. The Alolan Marowak kintype got the most scrutiny from me, I disassociated from the source for a long while, and took on a broader, non fiction-specific term for the identity while exploring other potential options, which was fire-oriented reptile. Kobolds, salamander elementals, drakes, all these things I tried to cycle around, none really fit. So, it is what it is I guess, I've dropped back into Alolan Marowak after a number of months of feeling repressed and awful.
One major change that has happened is allowing myself a sense of neutrality towards my otherkinity, trying to process that I don't want to waste energy hating this part of me or being grumpy and neglectful about it. I don't need to make myself like it or be excited about it, but a mind-state of "it is what it is" has soothed things a fair bit. Always still open to questions of course, but meh.
Meh is about the best I've achieved, and I'm fine with it.
Anyways, that's probably all I've really got to update here on. We'll see if I return to activity like I really should, or not.